DARK AS THE DAMN LIGHT

i waited too long...

damn it..

where will i be a year from now?

will i still be at penn state?

or will i be outta there?

will i be in europe?

or will i be in china?

will i be with my family?

or will i live alone?

the future is so uncertain

and the past is unchangeable

i saw ppl celebrate their birthdays,

surprise parties and such.

to me it was just another day

the next day i had school

this entry is so random

but right now i should be studying

my finals are coming up soon

but i cant seem to fall asleep

n i've got no motivation to study

or may i'm just fucking lazy

did i tell u penn state is stupid?

they try to rip me off

they put classes that i need

on the same days n time

for my next spring semester.

if they don't change it

i won't graduate by the time.

i dont wanna fucking give em

anymore money than i'v already did.

n i havnt gotten any A's

but A-'s i did.

i dont want any minus signs

i just want my damn A's.

it was 5 classes in spring n summer

so far that i lost those A's to.

fucking shitty professors

n their pride in not giving out A's.

n how i love caff pills

cuz they'r not illegals.

it's 5 AM!!!!

where the fuck is the sun?

o, it'll be up in like an hour.

fuck this shit..

i dont know what to write anymore

so i'm good at what i'm doing but i have no passion for it..

hmmm.... y am i doing it? cuz it's the right thing to do.

 "It's 5:30 am
I'm still sitting here
Not going to bed
Typing up a stupid poem
Thinking..
So much in my head

A friend felt left out
I say 'what's he talking about?'
i was the one who moved
I was the one who left
I was the one who faded
Faded away from memories
Faded away from friends

But I met new ones
Win some, lose some
That's a part of life
Things come and go
People do so
They come and go
Some leave footprints
Some leave hatred
Some just fade away" - 4/4/06